"Oh yeah, it's supposed to be hard and feel like shit sometimes."
How fun is this little aha moment that I had last week?
I've had the exact aha moment about five times over the previous year.
I somehow forget this little nugget.
I shared it with a client, and she said, "Oh wow, I thought you had your stuff together. I didn't realize you struggled with anymore. It makes me feel better!"
I do have my stuff together.
And I struggle.
These two can co-exist.
It's just part of the process.
It's wild.
I go through this when leveling up my business or working through something in my personal life.
I'll catch myself doubting and questioning EVERYTHING.
And I hate this part of growth.
I always think it's a sign that I'm off track, and I try to figure out what I'm doing wrong, what I'm missing, what I need to fix, change, etc.
Fun stuff like:
"This must be the part it all falls apart."
"My success was probably just a fluke, and this will end."
"I have no idea what to do."
"Ugh. Why is all this happening?!"
"I should be so excited and happy right now!"
"I wonder if I need to learn more about X, X, or X"
Every single time it feels so real/true, daunting, scary, and overwhelming AF.
🤣
Every.
Single.
Time.
I'll inevitably get to this point where I remember that it's supposed to be hard and feel like shit sometimes.
It's not a sign that something has gone wrong.
It's the tax I pay for growth.
I KNOW this happens.
I coach people through it all the time.
Hell, I study this for FUN.
And it still feels so true, and I fall for it every damn time.
It's annoying and funny and fascinating all at the same time.
The main difference for me now is that those phases of self-doubt used to shut me down for months.
Now, it's a few days.
And it doesn't shut me down.
It just sucks.
And sometimes, I throw a little internal (and maybe even external 😳) temper tantrum.
And then a little like 50-first-dates I suddenly remember as if for the first time.
Ohhhhh yeahhhh, it's supposed to be hard sometimes.
This is just part of the process.
And I keep showing up and doing things the best I can.
And it passes.
And all is well again.
And the cycle continues.
And I will continue to forget.
But I'll catch it and course correct.
The losing-my-shit phases make me appreciate my kicking-ass-and-taking-names phases so much more.
It's the difference between
"OMG. I have no idea what I'm doing, if I'm doing it right, if I should be doing anything at all, or if I'm even good enough for any of this."
and
"Oh yeah, this is just the part where I question everything - just part of the process."
One creates chaos.
The other creates calm.
If this is your struggle right now, what if nothing has gone wrong?
What if this is just part of your growth process?
If you're so deep in your story that you can't see it objectively, hit me up, I can help.
You can book your free call here.
Best,
Machele
Certified Time & Mind Management Coach
Email: macheleg@lifeleapcoaching.com